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08.29.01 - 9:33 a.m. Because last night the Travis rerun of Kilborn was on, because the Foster's "devotion" commercial played after we hung up and because I love these strange and funny little coincidences that link our lives: Here are the outtakes, the b-sides, the unreleased material of My Love For You.
06.15.01
06.25.01 You walk through the doorway at the airport. You walk over to me. You pull me close, my arms around your neck, and you inhale my perfume, fingers sliding across the fabric of my dress. We stare, and we can't stop kissing. It's the scariest thing in the world to think this; you are a faceless blur, someone I don't really know and am not allowed to believe in. You exist, but only as the good things and the hopeful, as the person I'd like to sit with on New York City balconies, to wrap me in blankets on cold beach nights, to fall asleep with after a long drive home. I'm almost afraid to see a picture of you. I want it to be too late, I want to be too taken in by your words and voice to care. I want to fall in love with your insides, like Michael in Microserfs, to be too deeply wrapped up in you for anything else to matter.
06.28.01
06.30.01
07.08.01 We are together, we're the same, I feel you and I want to be with you and I don't know what's going on or how I will be able to deal with this. I need you, I need to be the one in your life.
07.16.01
07.27.01 You ARE the one who makes me forget all the others, more than number five with a bullet, you are it, you're everything. I love you, I'm ready for you, I can't even form complete sentences or thoughts when I think of you anymore. A month ago, I made the choice. I knew. And now, it's all true and the only problem I have is missing you so much there's actual pain in my chest. Can this all happen so quickly? Can I be so sure, so soon? And there's some drunk guy Caroline brought home singing "Please Forgive Me" in my living room, so I know that whenever I ask a question like that, fate or coincidence will find some way to answer me. You are lightning running through my veins, you are the last thing I hear when I'm falling asleep and the first thing I think of (coherently) every day. I am yours, you are mine. We are each other.
08.01.01 I've been a bad girlfriend in many ways, but I've been a good girlfriend in so many, many more. And I try not to let my past get in the way, and to hear you say you don't care is wonderful and amazing and hopeful, because I try not to care and I've tried so many times, and now all I want to do is try for you because I know you'll equal anything I give. And for me, you are the one who makes me forget - well, it's impossible to ever completely forget, too many shared experiences, memories and moments for that - but I would never wish for a minute that I wasn't where I am now, here, with you.
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